Contentment VS Restlessness

Monday February 25, 2013           7:25pm

        Well it's been a while since i last posted, but i'm back now. Over the past ten or so days since my last post i've seen and experienced quite a few things. First off i made it known to my church that i'm going to follow God's call to preach in some way or form. Basically i'm just going to try to follow God where He leads me. Secondly i was told that i could go to a certain school for free. This got me to thinking a lot. Here recently school has become more of a hassle than a joy. i'm not sure if this is because i just don't like school, which wouldn't be abnormal for me, or if there's something bigger at play.
         Knowing that i could be going elsewhere without paying has caused me to really step back and readjust my view on my current situation. The school i could be going to is actually somewhere i have attended for a short time and i ran into a few doctrinal problems there. i have heard that things have gotten better though and it's definitely something that's constantly running through the back of my mind. The way it has readjusted my view is that i am now looking a little more critically at my classes, and i'm seeing chinks in the armor. Certain things are really starting to eat at me. Now don't get me wrong these aren't things that i've just now noticed but things that have been around for a while and they're just becoming more obvious. So i'm stuck in this place where i'm seeing the two sides of the spectrum with these two schools. One school is to strict in their doctrinal approach and the other seems to be to wishy-washy. So where do i go?
         There's no where i can go to either place and be satisfied. This may seem like a big problem, and indeed sometimes it is. But i have to learn to be content. I'm having to face my issue with contentment, i feel like it's a losing battle most of the time. It's hard to be content when i know certain things are not right, but i can't run away every time a strange wind blows. So can i be content in a place that i know does not have the same beliefs as me, a place where people are just so strange at times it can blow your mind? It's going to be hard but it's possible. i have to keep the faith and just keep pushing forward. Maybe God has something here for me to do, perhaps it'll get to a point where He shows me that He wants me to leave. Either way i have to be content until shown that i shouldn't be.

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